Where do I fall?

I am definatly more of a dark romantic and like to see the world for what it really is and what moves it, good and evil. I'd like the idea of transcending and providing for myself and feeling like nothing matters but, its a really hard thing to accomplish and is almost impractical to survive in todays world. Transcending seems like a very lonely life as well considering you have less influence on what others may have to bestow upon you. To think more like a dark romantic I think is to be able to see a that is easier to understand and more feasable.